pray kennbivins

What does Jesus judge about hatred, injustice, hurts, success, laughter? What do you judge about them? At this point, go back over the last two weeks of prayer. What commitments do you make? Go back over the whole month of your prayers. What was good? Not so good? Will you continue?

Lord, I know from Your word that You can not and do not tolerate hatred and injustice even though these things still work towards Your purpose and beyond our understanding. And success is relative. It can be financial or pretentious or medical or simple. Laughter is something that Jesus did often. He experienced all of the emotions we experience. Children were drawn to him and people invited him to weddings because he was more that God-incarnate. He was a likable guy.

These past two weeks have been both an accomplishment and a failure to me. I committed to be consistent and I have learned to do that and in that I feel proud. I still struggle for the finding the consistent time of day to talk to You. Some days it’s early in the morning, some days it’s in traffic, some days it’s at the end of the night, and other days it’s a cram session three days past due. I am elated that I have a record of such substantial growth to share with others.

What has been bad? At times, I feel that sharing my prayers with You puts me in a precarious place. I feel as if I’m on stage and what I share needs to be filtered from the truth. I feel that people are judging me. Fortunately, I have been more raw and unfiltered than I am comfortable and I will continue to be for I know there is a greater benefit.

What has been good? The greater benefit. Dad, I feel like I’m growing and accountable lately. It’s been amazing to share my words with You with others. I’ve gotten much encouragement and thoughtful conversation from J, T, N, and S. S is even starting her own blog to join J and I. This feels like church should feel. A community of believers growing and encouraging one another while edifying You. And I will continue. Amen.